i am being emma

Instead of being a princess and keep waiting for my prince charming
why dont I be like Khadijah.
and get the best man among all?

assalamualaikum lovely readers. selamat menyambut ramadhan. selamat berpuasa. selamat menyambut syawal. cewah all in one. well i havent updated my blog oftenly. mainly because i dont have any story to share. kalau ade pon its just a thought. a sudden thought or something i found over the internet that i hope can inspire you.  hahaha. oh well, i dont want to be a boss. i want to be an inspiration. :)

tell you what, my dearest valours reunited last saturday. we had an iftar at nandos together. meeting some of them after a long time means a lot to me. of course it made me feel young. i still remember how kecoh our dininghall was during the iftar. sharing food together. haaa wats a memory. and having another chance to experience the same thing all over again is something i really cant say NO.

us after the iftar :) 

21 but still look like hot-high-school-girls right.

wif brain of course. haha

ok well, as i told you, valours are the best people on earth to talk with when it comes about marriage.  so yes, we talk about it a lot. like who gonna naik pelamin first. how many tables should be reserved. and so on. i realize one thing, we, i can say most of the girls in this world, wanna be like a princess. and waiting for a perfect prince charming to come and propose us. tall, handsome, rich. just say it, he has it all. i was one of them. i wanted to have such prince in my life. to spend my whole life in a big castle. have servants to do everything for me. until last night which i dont know why i cant sleep.

i love night because we gonna be more emotional and simply said more jiwang. so while trying hard to sleep last night, this one weird song was stuck in my head. "renjis renjis dipilis..ditepungilah tawar..blablabla.." probably because i watched the latest CSI that night. which crime happened to be in wedding ceremonies.  then i have this sudden thought. IF I WANT TO BE LIKE A PRINCESS, WHICH PRINCESS SHOULD I BE? Cinderella? i dont want to be that poor. and running with one shoes left is much embarrassing.  Rapunzel?  i dont want to be locked up in a tower. hey i have licensed and car. i want to explore the world. Princess Diana? the people princess? well, i dont want to die like her.  SO I ASKED MYSELF, WHO IS THE MOST LUCKY WOMAN? the answer is, luckier, because she is the last love of a man. haha. you are a loser if you dont get the joke. :)

well, for that question, i might probably answer Mumtaz Mahal. the greatest symbol of love was built after her name. how many people traveled to India just to see Taj Mahal. it even be listed as one of  7 wonders of the world.  but hey, Mumtaz was Shah Jahan's 3rd wife. and no matter how special she is to Shah Jahan, she is just someone in the history. someone ordinary.

and then later in that dark night,  i suddenly remember Khadijah. i think she is the most luckiest woman. she was rich. very rich. she was beautiful. and she has the most beautiful heart at her time. and most important, she was married to the best man a human can be. Rasullah might not built any glamour building for her, but he built this empire. Islam.  and what make it sweeter is, they built it together.  and they succeeded together. and as long as a muslim can breath, she will be blessed. she will be remembered. people will send her doa. and she will be happily aver after, since she gonna leads us all to jannah.

BUT HOW CAN SHE BE SO LUCKY?
i remember few months ago, while attending my cousin engagement, many relatives asked, when my turn gonna be. as cliche, i answered "insyallah..". but that time, i dont know when my big day will come. the future seems so blurr because instead of trying my best to find my husband, i keep waiting for my prince charming to come. someone that will bend down and propose me like in many romantic american movies. i can tell that Hollywood movies usually overshadowed  the romantic story in Islam. i mean, bending down while proposing seems so much sweeter compared  to taaruff session when it was the first time the groom usually be amazed with how beautiful a woman can be. lip kissing seems more romantic compared to the first kiss in the bride forehead after the pakcik2 say "SAH".

thinking about khadijah, i wonder what will she tell me, if i seek her love advice. i know i will never have that opportunity (in a dream maybe) but at least i have her story. so now, instead of waiting for prince, i will work hard. i will study hard, get stable income. be a better muslimah day by day. and pray that ALLAH percepatkan jodoh saya. instead of let someone propose me, i want to propose a guy on my choice. i want to make the choice and not being an option. well, khadijah was the one that proposed Rasullah. thats why she can get the best man on earth. and at that time, Rasullah was very young, not even a Rasul yet. but she have faith in him. she dont act like many women which usually wants a financially stable man. instead she help him through his journey. she spent everything she owns for her husband for only one reason. LOVE. i know its gonna be hard, especially in this kind of world where things are being loved and people are being used, but i have faith in ALLAH. and i believe his words. “…women of purity are for men of purity, and men of purity are for women of purity” – Qur’an 24:26  and i believe that if i follow his rule, he will help me because hey, who can love me more than him? after all ill lose nothing. and i already have an example. look at what Khadijah get, she get whatever a girl could asked for. love. glory. bless. everything.

so if one day you see me still not married, dont ask me whhen my big day will, instead please pray so i will have a good husband. and if you see me be married to someone and you have a thought of "i think you can get someone better.." why dont you change your mind to "may ALLAH bless you both..". because in this world there are 3 things we should really rely on ALLAH. REZEKI, JODOH dan AJAL. be a better person, love ALLAH more than you love yourself and you will be loved more than you can ever imagine. this is what khadijah did.

~wat a long entry after trying so hard to sleep.

till then, salam.